Trent and I returned from North Carolina two weeks ago Monday night. It was a whirlwind trip, but God's fingerprints were all over the trip. I made the long trip up and back, (that in itself was fantastic!) and was even able to sleep well in a bed that worked! (Can't tell you what an answer to prayer those two things were!)
Anyway...the Dr. was very knowledgeable in chronic Lyme disease and seemed to answer most questions before we even had a chance to answer them. We spent almost 10 hours with her. Since we have been home, we have been trying to get everything situated and worked out. The details of all the meds., bloodwork, treatment plans, etc. I will be starting a whole new treatment. The one I was on only addressed a portion of the actual treatment needed. Long story....bottom line... as I go on this new one, things will get worse before I get better. I have had "game face" days. Those are the days I am determined to get through whatever...bring it on! ... but I have also had days where I am scared to death. I know the risks and what is to come, and there are moments I wonder if it is worth it. ( That's usually about the time that God sends in His special forces (one of my kids) and I am reminded that I don't have the luxury for those kinds of thoughts.)
Right now I am still waiting on Dr. input to decide which path I will take....oral treatment or IV/oral. Both will work...IV is the one I am trying to go for, it is a faster treatment and is better on my GI tract, ....there are more risks involved though and I do need a Florida Dr. to sign off.
As I continually process through all of my thoughts and emotions about this deal...I continually come back to this ( a thought from Walter Wangerin Jr.)...
"I beg God that I might do this thing with grace and gracefully, no matter its length or its ending."
And these two great verses:
I corinthians 9:26 " So I run with purpose in every step."
Hebrews 12:1-2 "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a cloud of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that so easily hinders our progress. And let us run with endurance the race that God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, on whom our faith depends from start to finish."